I’ve resigned from my current gig and am looking forward to finishing up in another couple of weeks. It’s a fairly cushy gig, but I’ve finally had enough of all the things I don’t like about the place and have decided that I need to focus more on my own projects and career path. seafelt isn’t getting enough attention, and nor are all the other things I want to do with my life. It’s time to move on.
Happily, I’ve lined up some other work that will free me up one day a week. I’ll be able to dedicate a solid day to seafelt, or whatever other projects deserve my attention. I’m hoping that I can move more in this direction and diversify my income stream more so that I can have a much more flexible approach to working. Having to work 10 hours a day at a place I hate doing work of dubious real value is pretty soul destroying. Sure, I have bills to pay, but loads of other people have managed to break free from the shackles of wage slavery, so I can too.
I want to get back to enjoying what I do for a living. The last couple of gigs have turned out to be pure ‘pay the bills’ jobs. Initially they seemed like they’d be interesting, challenging and fun. The shine wore off pretty fast, and I get really frustrated with what I see as pointless beaurocracy. I’ve learned a lot about myself in these past two years and though I can now see how I could have handled things better, I need to make a fresh start. Reinventing the way I do things isn’t something I have the emotional energy to do here, and to be honest, I’m not really that interested in the work any more. If I’m not looking forward to any aspect of working at a place, it’s time to move on.
I’ve also enrolled in a couple of courses to provide a bit of variety and stimulation. I’ve been avoiding doing extra stuff because I didn’t think I had the time, but the last week or so has proven that to be utterly false. I have plenty of time, I just haven’t been using it effectively. The malaise generated by the day job has been a big factor, sapping my energy so that when I get to leave at the end of the day, all I felt like doing was vegging out completely. That’s the completely wrong way to handle it. It’s a much better idea to find something else to look forward to and throw your energy into it and somehow channel that enthusiasm into getting through the work day.
That’s the plan, anyhow. We’ll see how it pans out.