I resigned from my job last Friday. I finish up in a month. I’ve got another gig to go to, but I’m only going to be working 4 days a week at it. I’ve taken a slight pay cut so I can pay myself one day a week to work on seafelt and similar, personal projects.
I also happened across some articles today in some break time that have started spinning my brainwheels (I just made that word up). I realised my brainwheels have been stopped, or only running very slowly, for well over a year. Possibly two. They’ve had the occasional workout, but it’s been brief. The enjoyable feeling I get when my brainwheels are spinning didn’t last long. I don’t like this.
I’ve decided I’m going to sit down and have a think about what the hell I’m doing with my life. I’ve been mostly moving in the right direction, but without real drive for probably two or three years. That’s a really long time. I don’t want to just coast along doing ok. I want to do really well, so I need to figure out what that means. I want to be really happy doing it, too, so I also have to figure out what that means.
Maybe it’s just a result of turning 30, but I don’t care why I’m suddenly motivated to do this. It just needs to be done.